4:17 p.m. - Sunday, Jun. 19, 2005
Direction
Gosh it is so warm! I love it!! I get fed up with being hot and humid, but being in the garden with the laptop, and driving with the car windows down, and sitting out at the pub. Yum yum yum.

I've been so up and down lately. Well, mostly down. I think I am improving though, God keeps poking blessings through the holes in my defences, and I'm starting to learn to look after myself. A little. I took this time out of college to give myself time to listen to Him, then filled it up so much that I was as busy as ever. What a banana! I basically need to sort out a whole new system of living upon which God can build success. I have always lived in a very unsustainable way, one think after the other, house a complete mess, everything done last minute. I'm being given this time to create a template for a calmer, God ruled life. It is very hrad to change, but I need to so I will. I have lots of fabulous supportive people areound me too. I am so happy that I'm happy today, as life really is quite hard for me at the moment.

I love this city so much, and I adore working in the city centre here too. I also love my work, despite it being fairly mundane. I love being surrounded by people, and stimulus, not to mention all the architecture. And my little shop staff is like family, with all the ups and downs that brings.

So, life is interesting, and strangely beautiful around all the pain.

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