6:22 p.m. - Saturday, Jun. 11, 2005
Loveliness
Right. I'm going to write an entry. I need to write and yet am employing all sorts of diversion techniques.

It was my birthday yesterday. I'm 23 now. Cripes! When did I get so old? I swear last week I was 14. It's been a nice birthday, I was kind of expecting it to be a dead loss but I got nineteen cards. Nineteen!! I just can't believe that many people like me!

This afternoon I went to the pub for lunch with my friends from my course. As I left the course some three months ago now, its very interesting to see how things are. Some friends are friends of circumstance. If you live with someone, and study with them, you're bound to be friendly. However, now I've lived elsewhere for two months, the ties are loosening on the friends that are friends of circumstance. The friends whom I love, whom I can go for weeks without seeing and yet still have endless amounts in common and laugh together for hours are as strong as ever. I've brushed up against a lot of people these past 5 years since I left home, but only the lovely ones stick.

My friend S wrote the most lovely message in my card, my friend C bought me a lovely present despite having no money, I and L bought me pretty fripperies that I adore, H and J made the effort to see me on the day itself to save me being alone, Bob sent me a fab top despite it being four months since we split. I even had a present and card from work even though I've been there just weeks. I got smellies, jewellery, flowers and chocolate - all the things a girl should have on her big day.

My life is changing a lot, and to some extent I live in fear. It is about time I took stock of these people around me, and my heavenly Father who sent me them all and loves me more than I can imagine, and put that fear away.

I am special.

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