10:59 p.m. - Thursday, May. 13, 2004
Passing Daze
Hello girls, I've been neglecting you. Life is pretty tough at the moment. Not tougher than me, but hard all the same.

I just put the chair leg on my bare foot. That wasn't incredible either!

I am ok. It's just weird. We are all so tied up in ourselves, so many exams, that we don't get time together, and my precious time of residence in this city is fading while I sit in my room trying to ignore the guilt I feel from my notes.

Bob is well, but distant. He works hard, but living apart means I see little of him. I wouldn't have it any other way, I love him for his commitment and focus, but the second this is all over, he is leaving the country, and leaving me in whatever state I find myself in.

We were going to go to the nature centre tomorrow, Mia and I, but an afternoon exam has scuppered that.

Driving is good, the freedom is intoxicating. I took a 35 minute scenic tour of Mordor in the rush hour today just because I could. Learning that skill has been so hard for me, but I think I appreciate it all the more for it.

I have got a holiday though. My twenty second birthday will be spent on the shores of Lake Garda. Mia and I are going to Verona together, flying to Venice. I love being European, the diversity and locality of our continent is unrivalled in my eyes. I've never been to Italy before, and I love to fly, so I am excited about that. Mmm, coffee and Brioche and Shakespearean sights.

I should not lose sight of how lucky I am.

PS Tomorrow's exam is a pig. It puts my whole degree in jeopardy, and more so that of my friend Nate. Pray for us, girls.

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