1:14 a.m. - Thursday, Mar. 25, 2004
Cheered up after a bad day
Oh, my girls! You do make me smile! There is a love-in taking place in my guestbook. Come along and feel the love!

Thank you for all my hugs! I feel very honoured!

Well, today was bad. I should be asleep by now but I had to come and tell my diary all. I'm glad it hasn't fallen out with me, as I forgot it's birthday. It was one on Tuesday. I am going to write a magnificent birthday entry soon, but I haven't had time to do it justice yet. Maybe I should do it now?? It is late, but if I 'forget' to text Bob goodnight, he will never know! Mwahahahahaha!

(Yes, I did say it had been a bad day. I got cheered up!)

So, on to today, seeing as that is what I am here to write about. I woke at 1.30pm. This is a bad time to wake to have a productive day. I let myself fester, today, thinking it would help, but it did not. So there is a life lesson.

My friend Key came round this afternoon, just after neighbours. He has been threatening to come and see my mice all term, so he did today. They were very pleased to see him, and him them. He didn't even mind that Martha blessed him with a little wee. We also had a nice chat, and it was lovely really. We are all looking forward to being grown up round this way. Four years of studentdom is enough to finish off anyone.

So he left, and I festered a little more, finally making it into the bath at 5.30, and waxing one leg afterwards (the wax got too cold and the thought of trekking to the kitchen to warm it back up was too tiring). I am now very lopsided in the leg hair deptartment. I am considering doing a shaving waxing comparison. If I had gold membership, I would be tempted to do daily growth photos. (I can hear the sigh of relief as you all realise poor student me will never be able to do this).

I then festered big style on the settee. For hours. I also only had fish and eggs to my name in the food deptartment, so didn't eat. I also felt very sorry for myself, and highly wronged that none of my housemates came to sing me love songs or compliment me on my greatness. I also felt like a bag of poo because I have been cross and hurtful to Mia lately, which is most unfair because she is kind and special and lovely to me.

I made it to the supermarket, where I cried at the dog food, and purchased £8.56 worth of fatty sugary, bad for me food. This is ok as somehow I burn it off and remain a size 8-10 (US 4-6). I am not proud of this, but grateful for it. I am thinking of marketing the Dr Megkins diet though. I'm not sure how I'd get a big book out of 'eat exactly what you feel like, and as much of it as you want.' though. I'm sure I could scam a few fat Americans though ;-)

I came back, watched ER, then imploded. Suddenly, I was evil super-bitch from hell. Suddenly, I deserved to be stoned to death, or chopped into tiny pieces. Suddenly, the world would be much better off if I was to just disappear. And no-one would notice. At this point I must retrospectively thank and applaud Bob for dealing with me telling him to 'shut the ****up' for telling me that people love me. I was worthless and vile and I didn't want to hear different. I was also going to get on a train to anywhere and just walk and walk. He says people would notice if I did this. I am still not ENTIRELY convinced, but I wouldn't do it to my mother. I maybe fancy going to the airport though? I love watching planes take off.

NEWSFLASH: Big squeaks from South-South-Westerly direction, identified as mouse sounds. Preliminary reports indicate that an argument over the cover may have occurred. Updates as they happen.

So I am not going anywhere. Or disappearing. And I am going to see Bob for proper time tomorrow and not just one hug in the computer lab before he asks me to go away as he has work to do. I am also going to see the counsellor tomorrow. I should take needle and thread to sew his ear back on after I talk it off.

Goodnight then chicks. I love you all

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